she watches him as he sleeps, still, calm, serene. his face leaned sideways, shows signs of stress from the work he's gone through, far from her. she smiles, recalling how she has looked up to this face multiple times, accompanied with different emotions. now she looks down on his sleeping state, filled with emotion still. drawing in every memoryof hapiness that she can, every bit of line she can memorize, not wanting to miss a single twitch of muscle or a flutter of the lashes. she will treasure all of this, all of the last 5 years, 1 month and 19 days. every bit of good and bad that they have experienced together. every laughter, every fight, every talk, every love-making. not a single detail would be slipped away for she will hold to these memories in the next days, the next months, the next years until the day arrives that she finds it in her heart to love as intensely as she loved him. she will love him, forever, for every day that arrives but not as he or she sees it, but as a love that will guide both of them to love others or, if their paths once again cross, love and appreciate each other more sincerely than ever.

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baby,

i love you more than you ever know. more than what i show you. but as we age, i realize that love is not enough. love should be combined with other things for it to be whole. i have lost mine, my love is still there but i need to find the other things that work with love and make me whole again. i want you to experience the world. experience the love of others. experience what life has to offer. you can have all this without me by your side, we are both strong. we'll both make it. if ever we cross paths once again, and we are destined to be together. i would wholely say, take me i'm all yours.

for now, good bye love...

TO YOU

to you, find out where you are and know what i gotta say:

TEETH: you annoying little prick, prancing your imaginary power and pathetic influence. i don't feel sorry for what you went through, nope, not at all. yes, sad i know but not everything is within your reach, especially your reach is just about a meter or less. phooey!

OLD HAG: trying to cover your a** so bad ey? tsk tsk tsk... keep hiding love, keep playing god but stop trying so hard to fit in cause no matter what you do, you don't have it in you. never had, never will.

BABE: as charming and as cute as that onscreen character your named after. you dont actually have a badbone on you and for the record i don't hate you and i don't want to get there but please, please, please let go of the imaginary world where it's all flowers and rainbows. the world out there is tough and if you don't toughen up yourself, you'll be tramped on by those who do. sweetheart, just be a bitch at least an hour a day, throw away that smile, cuss and hate. it'll make you feel better, trust me.

BABEII: grow up hun! geez! you'll never get laid with that.

PRETENTIOUS BITCH: you think right, straight and logical. hope you could at least be true and be you.

+5': i really dont know what to call you, your a nice person really. hope you could tone down the temper and if you can't, maybe direct it to something creative. look at me *wink*. just a tip, you don't become a boss and all popular getting mad and throwing fits. nobody is impressive that way. intimidation can only go so far. so better be more human and less of an animal when your temper's gone off. you'll keep the respect that way.

^_^: yes i know, life's tough and i'm impressed on how you handle it. but less talk more walk please.

POTTAH: please don't float your head too much on the air, it might detach. you are something alright but nope i ain't that into you. and i strongly think that my man can make me cum a lot more times than you can even convince me to sleep with you. your back ain't that worth it.

THE PPG'S & CO.: ladies, ladies, ladies, ladies... not everything is too good to be true and not everything can be claimed with the use of beauty cause yes even if you guys are beautiful, i tell you this. you should hear yourself talk! i mean damn! i know 6 y.o. kids who can pull an adult conversation and an intellectual one at that, without breaking a sweat. but on second thought, dont try so hard, your facade might break and all that make-up might melt from all that sweat breaking out just pulling up one high falluting word. save all that for sex talks, it might get you a chance to a marriage proposal.

FEMALE STICK FIGURE: you are as ugly and as lifeless as you look. and sorry hun, your IQ is as thin as you. i advise that you stop making side comments cause anything you say don,t make sense. save yourself from all this humiliation.

this dont stop here, there will be more. no, i'm not a coward for not facing up to these people and i dont hate them all that much, this just saves me from going over and telling them right to their face what i think of them. i'm human and yes i get upset but since i'm also a lady with substance, i also know when and where to strike. i'm good that way. :)