she watches him as he sleeps, still, calm, serene. his face leaned sideways, shows signs of stress from the work he's gone through, far from her. she smiles, recalling how she has looked up to this face multiple times, accompanied with different emotions. now she looks down on his sleeping state, filled with emotion still. drawing in every memoryof hapiness that she can, every bit of line she can memorize, not wanting to miss a single twitch of muscle or a flutter of the lashes. she will treasure all of this, all of the last 5 years, 1 month and 19 days. every bit of good and bad that they have experienced together. every laughter, every fight, every talk, every love-making. not a single detail would be slipped away for she will hold to these memories in the next days, the next months, the next years until the day arrives that she finds it in her heart to love as intensely as she loved him. she will love him, forever, for every day that arrives but not as he or she sees it, but as a love that will guide both of them to love others or, if their paths once again cross, love and appreciate each other more sincerely than ever.

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baby,

i love you more than you ever know. more than what i show you. but as we age, i realize that love is not enough. love should be combined with other things for it to be whole. i have lost mine, my love is still there but i need to find the other things that work with love and make me whole again. i want you to experience the world. experience the love of others. experience what life has to offer. you can have all this without me by your side, we are both strong. we'll both make it. if ever we cross paths once again, and we are destined to be together. i would wholely say, take me i'm all yours.

for now, good bye love...